Hi everyone! So recently I’ve been feeling in a little bit of a slump. I graduate on Tuesday and as exciting as that is, it’s pretty scary too. It’s the scary prospect of not really knowing where you’re life is going mixed in with seeing other people announcing exciting, life changing news. I keep thinking about how I want to be at the point of having a good stable job, my own home and at least being able to consider the prospect of having my own family.
However, I read something today which really made me think about how I’ve been feeling. If you know of Rihanna Olivia, you will know she does a weekly newsletter. She sends it out every Sunday which meant I received this week’s today. In it she wrote a similar thing about feeling stuck and it actually resonated with how I have been feeling. She essentially talks about how although she is happy with the life she has, she can’t help but want more from it and that’s pretty much how I’ve been feeling. I want a job and know I need a job because otherwise I essentially have no income and thats obviously not an ideal situation to be in. However, what resonated with me the most was Rhianna saying that she needs to start appreciating what she has and stop comparing her life to those that are years older than her.
This is basically me. This is my biggest problem. I compare my life to those that are years ahead of me. I also get myself into a panic about what I am going to do next. The hard thing about being a graduate is finding a job and that’s my main reason for feeling in a slump. However, I’m only 20, going on 21, years old. I’m not going to have the same experiences and plans as someone years ahead of me. I may not get the first few jobs that I apply for but I’m sure I’ll eventually get something. At the moment I’m able to support myself for a couple of months until September. It’s not ideal but the whole point of this post is that I’m trying not to worry about it.
I’m realising I need to enjoy my life the way it is right now. I have so much to appreciate, such as living with my boyfriend, albeit with my mum and sister, I am graduating university and will have a degree, I have this blog which I will be working harder on. I’ll be applying for some jobs but not getting myself worked up over not getting the first one. I’m partially playing with the idea of starting my own business but that’s not set in stone yet so we’ll see where that takes me.
I actually feel better for being able to let out all of my feelings and knowing that I’m not the only person feeling this way. Have you been in a slump lately? Feel free to share your feelings in the comments.
Thanks for reading!