Hi everyone! So today’s post is a little impromptu because today is one of my planned days but I just didn’t know what I wanted to post as I have a few drafts but I already planned for one to go up Friday and the others just didn’t seem to feel right. I also wanted to write this because I’ve seen a couple of posts about pressures of blogging and feeling inadequate as a smaller blogger which got me thinking and made me want to write this post so apologies if it’s a bit rambly.
I honestly do feel a bit inadequate as a blogger sometimes. And I don’t mean it in the sense of oh I feel inadequate and yet I have thousands of followers. I literally have hardly any followers and when I get a few new followers I seem to lose some too so my numbers haven’t gone up in months. I also have no blogger friends, I just cannot seem to connect with anyone or at least nobody seems to want to connect with me. I don’t understand how people become friends with so many bloggers because when I try it’s like I fall flat on my face in front of the popular kids at school. I’m not trying to say that people who have thousands of followers can’t feel inadequate because we all have our insecurities and honestly this post isn’t meant to be a negative one as such.
The point of this post is that I am trying to bear to my own drum when it comes to blogging. There is so much pressure within the blogging community and I feel like I get so swept up in it. One of the biggest pressures at the moment seems to be that photography needs to be flawless. I almost bought a camera I couldn’t really afford due to this because I really wanted to up my photography. However, upon realising I couldn’t afford the camera, I have finally realised photography isn’t the be all and end all for me. Don’t get me wrong, I would love for my photography to look as amazing and flawless as everyone else’s but honestly I’m starting to realise that I don’t need these things to make my blog what I want it to be. I do want to up my photography game but I’m going to do it my way so if that means taking pictures through my iPod then so be it.
My point is that I have to remember the reason for starting this blog. Particularly THIS blog because as I have mentioned before I did have a blog before this one and the reason I revamped was because I fell out of love with my old blog and I don’t want that to happen with this blog. I want this blog to portray me. I do like to take inspiration from other bloggers but I also don’t want to worry about what other people think of my blog. If I like what I am writing I will put it out there no matter how crazy it may seem to everyone else. I have a new series coming up and I was slightly apprehensive about it because it’s out of the box and it’s not something anyone else has done but that’s what I’m about. I don’t want to doubt myself and my ideas because at the end of the day it’s my blog and I don’t want to worry about whether people like my content or not. I’m not going to stop working hard to get followers but I want those followers based on the content I love to write and them liking it is a bonus and I want to beat myself up less if I don’t get the views or followers.
Sorry if I have been quite rambly, I just felt I needed to put this all out there. I really do appreciate the people who do follow me and read my blog, I think every blogger has those days where they feel inadequate and I think I’ve just been feeling this way recently. Do you feel this way as a blogger? Feel free to share your feelings in the comments.
Thanks for reading!